(c)2019 Carolyn Miller
Being separated from loved ones has always been a challenge for me. In my worldview, physical presence is extremely important and has an aspect to it that a text message cannot come near to capturing. A hug, for me, represents a deep connection as it expresses my love. Absence over an extended period of time builds up in my stomach as an aching that can only be dissolved with a big hug.
One day when I was experiencing these emotions associated with separation from my daughter, God revealed to me that He feels the same way about me when I am separated from Him. I had never really thought about God “missing me” but He showed me that He experiences this emotion and in particular he experiences it when I choose not to spend time with Him but do other activities instead.
This piece of music is one of the saddest pieces I have written to date. It is an out pouring of my heart as it tries to capture the feelings that rise up when I am absent from the ones I love. Its intention is not to make my loved ones feel guilty, for being away from me, but rather an expression of my love for them.
It is also an expression of the awareness of God’s love for me and his longing for me to spend time in His presence. His love for me is even stronger than my love for my loved ones.
About the score… find a sample of the score below. If you are a pianist who is about Grade 5 then I think you would be able to play this. It is not technically difficult but requires mature musicianship to play expressively with a depth of emotion. If you wish to obtain a full copy of the piano score then please contact me and I can send you a PDF. There is no cost involved… I just like to know where the scores are going. Thanks
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